*Oh Oh OH! speakin of which, he played e last 30min yest! *wEeees! hahas. yb dun curse him k? hahas. my lao gong is soooo Good! hahas. did u see him RUN? my gawd i couldnt stop grinnin the whole time. =) not to mention the excitement n enrgy he brought onto the pitch when he was sub into the field. hahas. u rawk! heeheehes. n he assisted ruud's goal k? li hai ba!

promos' comin. wad hav i been doin abt it? oh no. my notes are incomplete n i am extremely worried abt the lect tt i've been missin recently. realli regretted goin home on thur. had my eye allergy actin up again. oni dis time i tink it's due to sth tt i ate wrongly. *sigh*

i jus dun understand. y muz it be some pple hav to sick like dis? i cant take penicillin, aspirin and other painkillers tt pple take for headaches. if i take them, my eyes will balloon to a size of balloons. it is extremely embarrassin when it happens n i get ver self-conscious. my upper and lower eyelids swell to bigger than the size of my eyes n dere's nth i can do abt it. it's incurable. so i realli hate it when i get headaches and fevers. i jux wan to hide under my pillow n not let anione see me. my bro has dis prob too. it's in our genes. that oso explains my big eyebags. =( i tot tt my allergy wun act up again. when i was young, jux havin dirt on my eyes would trigger my allergy. as i grew up, it became less serious. but i realli do not like it one bit at all. the pain is at times bearable but i dun wan to feel so weak and sickli. though it rarely happen nowadays, i cant predict when it will act up again.

i wan to thank u guys who showed care n concern when ur saw me tt day. even though it's a simple 'take care' i felt realli warm inside. but i jux cant help feelin 'GO AWAY!' inside my heart. i wan to push everione aside and be left alone. i do not wan u guys to see me lidat. i wanted to hide in the toilet cubicle til the swellin subsides. actualli, part of the reason y i wanted to go home is becos i dun wan my frens to see me. yes.

and to add on to my heartbreak, i felt extremely low when my mum seemed more worried abt me missin my lessons than me being sick. yeah, u may not mean it tt way mumee but i realli hurted me, waitin at the cold and wet bustop alone for 30min for daddy to come fetch me to the doc. alot was runnin thru my mind n i knew tt no one would see me cry as it was rainin. even so, no tears came out. i guess my eyes were too swollen tt my tear glands weren't functionin as well. haha.

i shant tok abt dis animore. i am alrd in a panicky state juz tinkin abt my promos comin up. there's nth tt i can seek solace in. my life is pretti sad. gone are those days wif my sec sch frens. how i wished i could turn back time to those good old times.
those times when i would look forward to goin to school.
to rv, even though it is a pretti rotten sch.
to see my frens n lauff.
to hear fishy, dix n hsin sing.
to see benjamin pickin up fights wif benny.oh, e laughter they brought me.
to see fusong actin stupid and get scolded.
to see yc tryin so hard to make sure tt 4k is obedient.
to hear lao lee callin me by my full name. shiliwen!
to share secrets wif piggyhugs.
to scold piggyhugs when she tinks of sw again.
to poke fun of phua and zg.
to hate mdm mak's eng lesson.
to stare strgt back at mrs woon's BIG eyes.
to pay 50 cents fine to lao lee for being late to class aft recess again.
to see ch draw anime tt look so great.
to see brandon act cool. who tinks he's realli cool.
to hear all the bad thins ppls say abt other pple in the same class.
to sleep durin mr chan's geog lessons.
to realli adore my chem teacher mrs lim.
to moan and whine everi mornin run.
to try to stick my neck up everi time we hav spot checks.
to hang ard at je aft sch.
to say hi to the nice aunite workin at je jap fast food.
to arrange pple's desk aft sch.
to wow at guo xian's and sharon's remarkability.
to be amazed at sok's social circle.
to ignore everithin en hua n benny say.
to peak at him everi now and den.
to peak at him play bball aft sch.
to sneak chocs into his bag at times.
to lose my mind when he toks to me.
to always look out at the front door everi morn at 7.15 cos tt's the time he comes sch everi morn.
to be ver HAPPY durin o's. as he's sittin either in front or behind me.
to be look at his bei ying whenever i can.
to to to ...

i miss those days. realli. can ainone make me lurve nj as much? pls?
is dere anione out dere who could make dis remainin time at nj bearable for me?

there isnt and i know it.