a totally meaningless title for today's entry.
i only got to say today just isnt my day.

today is pms day, when i just think about nothing that really matters in my life.
i just get sad all about the lousy things that have happened to me(screw that ulcer!)
and i just feel totally rotten inside out.

i need someone to talk to but there's honestly nothin that i want to say.
it's just one of those times when you dont get that spontaneous energy to do anything at all.
absolutely nothing with a capital N.

i dont feel like reading, i just finished a book.
i dont feel like playing computer games
i dont feel like surfing the net
i even said no to shopping with my friends tmr.

omg. my craving for shopping! where have you gone?
and then jiahui reminded me just how much i want to buy that pair of leggings with her
but i just cant get my butt out of this house!
oh my my.
how i wish i understand sign language.
no, how i wish EVERYONE understands sign language
so that when i have ulcers, i can communicate with them using my hands
i just dont want to say or speak at all but why must everyone still expect me to reply them in words when they know my plight?

and everyone is so concerned about me that it kinda makes me even moody.
i dont know why.
i just feel that i suck at looking after myself.

even so, i accomplished something today.
i cooked spagetti for lunch for myself.
at least i didnt torture my body today.
it better not rain tmr cos i cant think of anything i can cook for lunch tmr.
i am gg out to get some well-deserved vitamin E and get myself packet lunch.
yes i will!
and then i got to talk to the vendor.
damn that ulcer.
ulcers suck

maybe i should go online and search for some simple to learn sign language thingys.